I keep spending money.
I’m acting as if i have all the cash in the world to spend but i don’t.
I don’t know what is going on with me.
I like spending money, i like buying things that i want. I work hard to earn an income and i feel that I’m entitled to use it how i like. But i know that I’m on the slippery slope of potentially spending more than I’m earning and that scares me.
I like eating out.
I like shopping.
I like make up.
I like hotel stays.
I like concerts.
I like DVDS.
I feel like I’m trying to keep up with other people. But that’s a pressure i put on myself because not once has anyone ever commented on the fact that i don’t have an iPhone or an iPad or all designer clothes or designer accessories or whatever else i feel that people care about.
I get worried because i have so many things to pay off or coming up that i know cost alot of money
Registration for my car
Pay back my credit card
but i just can’t seem to help it! I’ve tried not having alot of money on me but i get nervous that something will happen where I’ll need a large amount immediately. It never has happened so I’m not sure what I’m so nervous about but i can’t seem to control it.
I don’t know how to curb it.
It’s usually a phase but at this stage, it’s a phase i can’t really afford.